oh, yeah. that’d be ME.
how amazing is it, that every day is a fresh start? this week has had me down. so much going on, I just got buried. threats from people in my past, life stress, shitty “friends”, struggles to keep a roof over my head, not enough time in the day, can’t keep everyone happy. but, the beautiful truth is, today is a new day… and I can move on, away from everything bringing me down, and onto better things. my heart is so full of love, and it just propels me forward, thank god for that. blessed, no matter what.
my best friend will be here tomorrow night, I’m so excited.
everyone is needing something from me right now, trying to appease them all. have a headache. crashed my car today, not pretty, she’s wounded but ok. I’m ok, no I’m not, I will be. getting back into denver tomorrow afternoon I think, I hope, if not it’ll be late. have to get my little cave of a condo ready for mrs. white’s arrival (very excited). been so busy, so frantic. mother called and screamed at me for things that make no sense. ah, menopause. trying to keep boyfriend happy, he’s not happy, not at all. I’ve been gone too much this weekend. my father called me today, you know, the man I haven’t seen in 7 years, didn’t know what to say. he wants me to go into business with him, lovely. I’m such a mess right now, I feel like I don’t have enough time, or enough energy, to get everything done.
80% of the calls that come in, blast the tune “push it to the limit” by paul engemann. it’s loud, obnoxious, makes me giggle a bit, and I can hear it in another room. it works for me.
so, what do I hear coming up from the courtyard below me just now? you guessed it. this is war. I raced through my apartment looking for my phone, thinking I was missing a call. bastard.
I need you in my liiife.