today was a bad day. there’s only one person I want to talk to right now, and I don’t think he cares anymore. it makes my heart sink every time I think about it. perma-frown. I think maybe I’m more upset with myself for getting my hopes up? or maybe I’m frustrated because despite this, I can’t stop thinking about him..or.. I don’t know really, I think...
mixed signals drive me crazy.
make up your mind, please… and when you do? be a dear and let me know.
all packed up, but so not ready to leave. I have a million things to do, I depart at 8PM sharp, I will absolutely NOT have everything done before then. yipes. tomorrow is a very full day… starting early, ending late. it’ll be good to see my boys though. :)
The thing about courage is it’s something that we have to learn and relearn our...– Nim’s Island (via filmquotes)
i feel like such an idiot.
maybe it was all built on unstable ground, maybe i never really wanted it, maybe he was just strong enough to get in. this wall looks like a gap-tooth smile. tie a string to every brick, slam the door shut, hope to god you got it. you got it. i was dizzy from the rush, now scrambling to fill the holes. some fortress this is. i want to press rewind. if only he would just say what i needed him to, i...
big day! ahhh!!
I’ve been working on this project for a very long time, and today we finally launch. this is exciting for me, I’ve used every bit of marketing genius I have to pull this off. it’s been my baby for so long. in some ways I feel like it’s my last big shot here, and if it doesn’t work, I’m going to literally have to pack up and move on. ugh. fingers-toes-everything...
los campesinos - don’t tell me to do the...
sometimes for no real reason at all, I feel lucky....
today is one of those days. :)
Geocities to close after 15 years of aesthetic... →
skylines: *raises hand* I definitely had a pretty horrific Geocities page. D: awww, I did too.
OH! also! taylor swift.
WHAT THE FUCK? that love story song? SO FUCKING CUTE. I hate myself.
oh, fuck me.
I like lady gaga? what? when did that happen? I had no idea she did that song they play non-stop, which has become my guilty pleasure. fuckfuckfuck. so, I’m headed back to altitude 10,000 tomorrow. I have so much to do. that’s good news, fantastic even. it’s something. look at me hustle, hell yes. however, as lovely as this is, my new life-schedule is not quite so rosy....
I asked my girlfriend to go on the pill. She chose...
anjalouise: (via sharingtime) hahaha
What 1 Trillion dollars looks like. So unreal. →
(via nicholasscimeca) http://www.pagetutor.com/trillion/usdebt.html yipes.
alright, it has been decided. 365 is a go!
thank you, virg and C for the support! haha. I will be starting today, considering that I’m a photo freak, I feel pretty confident that I can catch up pretty quickly, and if not… I’ll just start next year in april as well. woo! in other news: I woke up today in extreme pain. the extra little tweaking of my poor ankle last night ended up being more than just a minor aggravation,...
I always do this. I don’t know how to stop. I push people away, because I’m afraid, because I’ve been hurt, because I don’t want to be made a fool, because it’s so hard for me to believe that anyone would really want anything to do with me. I push push push, and then… when I’m finally all alone, I realize how much I like said person, how I wish I...
hmm. 365 project?
I’ve been toying with the idea of doing it, but the problem is, I’m already so far behind! I take pictures all the time, but I doubt I have one for every day of the year thus far. so… I’m not sure how I could catch up. ideas?
Project 365 tumblr →
kelela: Work in progress. I am adding 5 at a time right now. Hope to have it up to date by next week. I want to do this, but I figured I’m already way behind. :( bummer.
I love this man. he can hit me in the head any... →
everyone is always like “life is too short”, but what if it were too long? what if instead of trying to cram every experience you possibly can into this short little life, you had to ration out fun because life’s too damn long, you’d run out of things to do? man, that would suck.
today, I feel like a graveyard girl.
it’s snowing, quite badly. I was supposed to be gone, but here I am, still. today feels like it may never end. I’m avoiding people because I’m afraid, not really people…just one person actually. I hate fear. my dog is the only being that truly gets me. is that strange? probably. it’s still snowing, I was hoping it would magically stop if I mentioned it, I guess...