today, I slept in until noon because I haven’t been able to sleep at night since I got to breckenridge. I made spicy apples, and drank all of the cold-brewed coffee my mother had in her fridge. worked on some projects I have cooking that will hopefully bring me lots of money so I can scrap this whole “hey, I need a job, hire me” stuff that has me stressed out all the damn time. went to a movie and yelled at some teenagers for being obnoxious. came home and watched “how I met your mother” and some infomercial for bras that really just looked like sad boob sacks. drank all of the wine. all of it.
basically, life is pretty ok. one day at a time.
also, baby elephants are assholes. don’t let anyone tell you anything differently.
Interesting!
This is pretty brilliant:
This Blood Lamp doesn’t look that bloody, but the way you turn it on can be considered gruesome. It only works once, and you need to add of a drop of your blood to activate it! The idea is to stop and think about how badly you need light before you use it. Designer Mike Thompson created the lamp in order to draw attention to how much energy we waste.
Source: rasputin
i’m still in the mountains… i’m not sure when i’ll leave. i don’t want to. i can’t face going home and packing up all of his things yet. i haven’t been able to sleep much. i miss him so much. i keep expecting him to come running into the room, or barking at the tv whenever another dog is on. everything feels so quiet and empty without him. i reached into my purse today and found his collar that i had forgotten about, and just lost it. does this get easier? i never knew i could miss a dog so much.
My handsome boy passed away peacefully today, with lots of kisses and love. I know in my heart it was the right choice, but it was really hard. There really aren’t words that could ever express what this amazing dog has meant to me. My heart is absolutely broken. Miss you Dante, love you always.
ugh.
my poor dante is not doing well. taking care of him has occupied nearly every waking moment of my entire week. today, I took him to the park, and it pretty much confirmed that it’s time. I’ve been dreading this for so long. as soon as my mother gets back from california, I’m taking him to the mountains, to our vet, and it will be over. I am a wreck. my heart is just breaking over it all.
the job search continues. so far nothing solid, but I’m still very hopeful. my friends and family have all been so incredibly supportive, I’m so thankful.
my ex-boss showed his true colors, refusing to pay me the remaining money he owes me. all I got was a “sorry mango”. it makes me so upset that he had me work an extra two weeks, knowing full well that he was going to skip out on paying me the rest. I could have used that time to prepare a bit more. I gave him some options, even offered to trade for my old computer there if he truly didn’t have the funds, but he just ignored me. it’s so messed up.
I just want all of this to be over with. everything with my dog, and the job stuff, I just want it to settle down a bit, so I can catch my breath. I’m so stressed. bah.
So, here’s the thing…
I got laid off. Fired, really, because my boss stomped into my office a week and a half ago with a sneaky grin and said “I’m pulling the plug”. The conversation quickly went from the company being bankrupt, and shutting down, to what seems to be closer to the truth.. I’m being “let go”. I don’t know what’s really going on, and honestly, I don’t need to know… it’s just another scheme of his that this time, I don’t have to worry about battling against for sake of my ethics.
I thought about how I should be talking about this publicly, if I should lay it all out there and not care who knows what, purge myself of emotions and frustrations… or if I should keep a solid professional front.
But really? It’s neither. Fuck it all, I’m leaving it in the past and moving forward. I have a bright future ahead of me, and I’m thankful for it.
It’s absolutely scary as hell, but I’m trying to just take one day at a time.
That being said, if any of you have any kinds of leads for design work, I would greatly appreciate it! I’m trying to spread the word, I have 3 days left here, and then I’m done, and will need to find work ASAP.
take your silver spoon, and dig your grave
Source: eyefivestyle
Q:You have land? Cool! Where?! I've always loved the idea of a cabin, but in reality, I know we'd rarely get to visit it; there's too much to do at home...
Yes, my brother and I have a piece of land up by Hoosier Pass, about 20 minutes outside of Breckenridge. It’s been a challenge to build on, because there’s a stream running through it, and a portion of it is marsh, which you can’t really touch, so these little kits seem like a good option!
art director, designer, classy lady, bike rider, pie baker, bare-knuckle boxer, lover of people and things.
